Monday, May 18, 2015

Changed Plans


A couple of weeks ago, we had a roommate reunion. My sophmore year at BYU was one of my favorites. I only knew one of my roommates when we began that year, but we certainly all became close friends by the end. We functioned very much like a family and I learned a lot from those lovely ladies. 
It's so interesting to think back to those sophmore single days. We can try to plan for our lives, but we're almost always so far off. 
Back then, two of my roommates were really set on going on missions (one especially). One of the other ones was in a relationship that she was fairly set on. My actual roommate and I were not in relationships nor did we plan on going on missions, we just planned to travel and serve our own way. 
Have you ever heard that "if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans?"
None of us did exactly what we planned to. 
The roommates who were dead-set on going on missions, decided it wasn't right for them and later got married to wonderful men. 
One of the roommates who was in a relationship, ended up marrying someone totally different and now has a beautiful little girl and another on the way. 
My other roommate and I, who were not even thinking about going on missions, ended up being the only ones to go. 


Yes, we have choices in our lives. Where each of our lives have gone from sophmore year to our reunion picnic several years later is a result of the choices we have made. But it's also a result of each of us following a uniquely designed God-given plan for our lives. It takes a lot of humility to replace our ideals and what we thought life would be like with that of what God is trying to tell us is best. But, when we do, it truly is best. 
It was so good to meet up again and see where we had all ended up. Everyone has hard things going on in life, but at the same time everyone is happy. God has taught us things that have been uniquely stretching and uniquely beautiful to each of us.

I'm so grateful (as I think each of us are) that the plan we had for ourselves our sophmore year was overruled by His whose plan is perfect. 

God tends to have bigger plans for us than we have for ourselves. 

Yesterday, my boyfriend and I went and did service that I actually used to do on a regular basis when I was living with that same group of girls several years ago. We went and sang hymns on Sunday at the hospital. That's always been a beautiful experience. This one was no different. One of the songs we sang has always been a favorite of mine: Lead Kindly Light



I love this song because I tend to want to see the whole picture all at once. I want God's game plan for my life in my hands; the blue print in full. But, he doesn't give me that. He gives me one step. One brick at a time. I have to use my agency to chose to take the steps and build with the brick he's given me, but he doesn't leave me directionless. One step enough for me. 

"God has a perfect plan for us. He never does it all at once, just step by step because he wants to teach us to walk by faith not by sight". 

Love Always,
Michelle