Saturday, March 24, 2012

Journal Entry 3: Dear Me

The unfortunate thing about too much of my journal is that it's over-stuffed with boy drama. Every time that cute boy wrote me a note or played with me at recess, that's what I wrote about- not neccisarily the spiritual moments. But what do you expect from a pre-teen? The next Journal entry will be missing a section at the beginning (to protect the identity of my elementary school romance), but it still has some pre-teen flare to it...
Me in 2004
"Dear Journal,  
Today is Jan 9, 04..............Well anway, most of the rest of this will be a note to myself...  
Dear Me,  
This is your 12 year old self writing to my future self- I've got a couple things to say to you that you better listen to!
-Don't ever forget your heavenly father!
-When the time comes- get married in a LDS temple!
-Try to go to BYU!
-Always <3 kids and future husband!
-Chose good friends and boyfriends
-remember to read scriptures and pray
-Never give up!
-always stay spiritually clean
-Don't smoke, drink, ect.
-Always be happy
-Keep trying
-Ask for help when you need it
-Chose the right guy!
-Raise kids in the church
-Remember your always loved (here are some examples of who <3 you... ME!, Heavenly Father, Holy Ghost & Jesus, Mom & Dad, relitives, your past pets, friends, "boy-friends", ect)
-You're beautiful and don't U Dare think differently
-Don't forget me (your past)
-Choose The Right!
Your BFFL (Best Friend for Life)
Michelle Curtin (@ age 12)"
Some of those things I actually followed through on, some I'm still working on... But, I am grateful for a sassy 12 year old that told me what's what. Way to know what's important 'lil me!
Love Always,

Friday, March 23, 2012

Journal Entry 2: Historical Significance

So when I said I was a consistent Journal writer, I was exaggerating a little. It took me a while to really get into it. The second relevant entry came a few years later after my parents took us to the Nauvoo Temple open house in Illinois.

The humidity did wonders for my hair
That Illinois trip is something I still hold dear memories of. Even though at first I thought it would be an incredibly boring trip, it ended up being one of our most memorable.

"Hay Journal.
The Nauvoo Temple is finally being rebuild and I got to see it! I went in side!As soon as my feet (which wore in plastic) touched the ground I new it was a real temple. I COULD feel the spirit. It was so strong. I hope to be able to do babtisms for the dead in the S.L.Temple or the Bountiful temple and some day I'd like to be married for time and all eternitey in one of the beautiful temples! By the way, it was June 2002 when we went. While we were on our trip we went to lots of historical sites like adamondionman (wich is where adam is going to come back to), far west (where they started a temple but never finished) Hans Mill (wich is where one of our ancestors died- Austin Hammer) Liberty Jail (where our prophet Joseph Smith was held), the Jail where Joseph and Hiyum Smith died (while were where there it began to rain a thunder shok. we went both prisons in the Jail then we went to the room where they had stayed. as we sat and listened to the tape about the two bulets coming throw the door (the secend killing hayum Smith) lightning sturk sounding exactly like bullets. I could easily see John Taylor rolling under the bed after being shot by bullets including one that hit his pocket watch that was directly on his heart. I could see our prophet, Joseph Smith being killed. It was totally amazing! Then we went to the temple (WOW!!!) At the end of our trip we went to Chicago we went lots of very cool places including siers tower, the acoriom, farris weel, 3d show, china town and lots more, well see journal I'm gettin tired.

Good night!

- Michelle Delta Curtin. June 2002"  
I still get chills thinking about how vivid that experience in Carthage Jail was for me. That's where my testimony of Jospeh Smith really started to become more solid. I don't need huge, extravegent trips to gain a testimony, but expereinces like this one are so meaningful to me. (That's why they're written down). I will never forget this experience and am grateful that I had the opportunity for it.
Love Always,

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Journal Entry 1: Before Being Baptized

I started my first Journal when I was 7 years old. It was a few months before my baptism...
Anyone else think my mom posed me for this picture?

My first few pages in my journal are littered with colorful pens and misspellings. My thoughts are scattered like easter eggs, but the feelings are in there somewhere. Here's the first recorded mention of my testimony- it's on the 2nd page of my first Journal:

"Iis February 20th 1999. today I took my dog for a walk arund the block. My testimony is... I bare my testany and I now the church is true. I love my familly. Hi Journal it's me again. Today I got to do nothing. at last Nathan is caming back. That's in two moanths. I can't whait. My favrit coloer is navy Blue. bi for now. When I tern 8 and I get babtised I wood probaly fill like the hollhy gost was going to be with me forefer. if he efer went away I cold not live. I love evrething God has givn me. I love my familly best. ho ya I almost fergot my birthday is setember 30ith but my baptism is at november 6th. now my grandma has chichen and i think a hen her smallist is black. tomaro we will have a piknik at her house it will be fun."

This is me on my baptism day with two of my friends who were baptized the same day. (Nathan-my best friend who was "caming back" is on the left and Jacob is on the right)
I remember vividly some memories of before I was baptized. I remember when the Primary president came to interview me and ask me if I wanted to make the choice to get baptized. In the LDS church, the age of accountability is 8. Now, it seems like 8 year olds are too young to be making decisions like that, but I remember digging deep down into my little heart to decide if I was really ready to follow Christ. I chose to be baptized.  I am grateful for the wonderful people that were in my life as a child who helped me understand who Christ was and allowed me to make decisions for myself to chose the right.

Love Always,